Let it Rock!

Im tired, Exchausted. Hockey is totally draining me out. So many cuts, bruies and abrasions fron all those diving tackles. It is so so painful. It really makes me want to cry sometimes when i shower. Even  when sleeping is painful when its on the wrong side. My ankle is not in favour. Its really really not. I feel so angry at myself sometimes when i cant push myself during fitness and trainings. Im not sure i have given my best. Im not sure im prepared for Asia Cup. All i know is i tried. Maybe its not good enough.

School has been pretty much alright. Its only the first week. How much work can they give right? Im still contemplating whether or not i should go school on Monday. Its going to be a long long day, 9 to 6pm. With only one hour lunch break. Or should i just take the time off and rest before we leave for Bangkok?

Weekend camp at sports school. Im soo looking forward to it. With loads of video session, morning and evening trainings. HELP.

Yesterday was back to school. It became a one and a half hour lesson from a 9 to 6pm. Today was 2 hours straight lecture. So far the firsk week of school is very slacking. But looking at the workload that we are going to get after this first week is definitely going to kill me.

One more week to Asia Cup. Its soo fast. Too too fast. Its the first time ever im not looking forward to skip school. There are going to be sooo many things to do, So many things ti catch up with. Its a choice that i made. So im going to try hard to do well in both.

Training later. Im going to take a nap before im go. BYE!

I need my allowance to come sooon!! Bought myself a pair of adidas shoe the other day and a hockey stick. Finally i got my voodoo punisher code red! But i still have not used it  yet. Im not sure i want to. Its going to painful to see my stick get scratched and dented. But i guess its still going to happen during asia cup. Playing with teams like China. They probably dont even care if your stick break into 2. haha. 

Had a nice chat with dad yesterday. He is soo nice. Love him ttm! I want to travel. He already said yes. So now the questions is, when? The next long holiday i will get is next year March. And i hope there wont be any hockey trainings because thats the only time that i can go. Well March is still a looong way to go. So plenty of time to plan.  but im already excited!!

I have been wanting to update my blog but i just got too lazy. My first tournament with the first Singapore hockey women's team. It was awesome. Not only i enjoyed myself alot but i think i learned alot from this trip. So many new experiences, learned more about my teamates and other team's culture. It was amazing. Though we all know that it could be a silver. The thought of getting a bronze was never on my mind thats why i guess it hit us hard when we actually got a bronze. All we can do now its just to give our best during these last few training session before the asia cup and prove them wrong, We know we can. i know i can. 
 
Nevertheless, it has been one of the best trip so far. The only thing i hate most was doing laundry. There were just so many to do. I'll bring a bigger luggage so that i can put more clothes and wash less. haha. But now im back, no more laundry for me to do!!

Didnt have enough sleep yesterday because i was only back home at 4.30 am and i forced myself to wake up by 12 because i got to get things done before leaving for Bangkok tmr. Like finally we are leaving for bangkok! Im looking forward to it. but still i have not even pack my stuff yet. Im too lazy to do it. Somehow i have to get it done by tonight. Alrights im done here. I hope the hotel there has wifi. (:

I feel so sucky now. It still hurts and i am a little bit reluctant to see the doctor because im scared. I have sacrifice alot already and now im just going to screw everything up. I really cant believe it. Results are still not out yet. Though i know what the outcome will be. Shit always happen. i am thinking what did i do to deserve this. Maybe im just thinking tooo much. Sea cup is just a few days more. Now i want the time to go slower so that i can recover in time. haha.

Anyway the team bag really looks cool. I really cant wait!!!(((:

Im tired. im tired. im tired.

Today was actually pretty awesome. Didnt expect it to be nice and fun. My day was filled with nice wishes from all my friends. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH EVERYONE!!! I really appreciate it. Thanks friends. Thank you so so much.

Common test in the morning. It was alright. Can pass but dont think will score. Then headed straight home. Planned to study before going out but plan didnt go as planned. So instead had a last minute steamboat at my place with Zy, Nina and Eunice. It was the best dinner i have ever had with my wonderful friends. We had a vvvvvery long dinner. We are untill our stomachs were really bulging out. There was soooo many foood. Gosh im back to be a pregnant mouse!!!! But it was really worth it. Then " exercised" by playing guitar hero all the way!! super duper funny and awesome. After playing, ate "birthday cake/ ice cream", sang birthday song. and then sabo-ing me. We all wished that we could stay longer and have some more fun but it was already quite late and they needed  to catch the last train/ bus home. so yeah. Thank you soooo much everybody and my 3 special friends. You guys are awesome. (:

Pictures will be uploaded on fb pretty pretty soon.

Tmr physical chem common test. Shit im screwed. i better go study now.

So far im loving my classmates. They have been awesome. Celebrated Yvone's birthday on friday. Gave Yvone a mini sneek peek of her present right after the first lecture. Ate lunch together. We played a very dusgusting game during lunch.. Everybody started starring at us. haha. Then i headed down to delta to watch A div semis. Sadly the second game was postpone due to bad weather.Met the rest at sembawang's pasta mania for Yvone's dinner birthday. Miss Teng came and join us. (:

Today i woke up early and went to the stadium to run and do my fitness work. I have the fitness 3 times this week so i dont owe anything. I bet im going to ache. Then went out with Chryslers to marina barrage for some picnic and games. I miss them sooooo much!!!. its so great to see them again. Well unfortunately none of my ex classmates are in nyp. after marina barrage we headed to vivo to eat and slack. we talked and gossip till everybody was really tired. Then i headed home fisrt cos i was suppose to attend some party but decided not to as i wanted to watch manu's game.

And tmr, meeting the National womens for a mini soccer tournament at The Cage. Oh gosh how to play soccer when im going to ache badly tmr.  man..  but i am really looking forward to it. (: cant wait!

Lastly, i really have to study.A few quizes and test are coming up next week. ): and pictures will be up soon.!

I hate Wednesdays. Its a day where i have to carry so many things to school plus no lunch break. sucks. Physical chem sucks. having 2 hour lecture plus an hour of tutorial straight away is really really sucky. After school went to play floorball. Then to hockey; friendly- NYP agaisnt NJC. it was very funny. We only had a few people who can play hockey and the rest was just players who just started playing hockey in 3 days?. At first we were all thinking whether would we lose or draw the game cannot win. Hahah. so we jst played. damn tiring. I dribbled like from our 25 yard to their 25 yard. damn tiring but all thanks to passes from clarise that we all scored from. so we won them 5-3. Then headed back home with sally. And today i can blog because THERE IS NO SCHOOL TMR!!!! YAY!!!

 

 

and today you look really really awesome(:

Went to school with a very heavy bag today. Planned to go for the nyp hockey trg. Had to carry my lappy, shoe bag and stick. But at the end of the day i decided not to go for the trg. i was too tired. i slept during micro A lecture plus have to finish up project on com skills which all of us decided to go online to discuss but there were only 3 people on out of 6?i guess everybody is just too tired. And guess what i eat fur lunch today? Didnt feel good after eating it. 

 Now im helping my brother to finish up his f&n homework. Always do things last minute. And he just unplugged my charger for my laptop while i was doing my project!!! i have not even saved it and it didnt put it the battery in my lappy. so now everything is gone!!! its gone!!! and he still can laugh about it. effing idiot. argh. im so angry with him. annoying to the max!

Today school ended at 5. Was held up by german class. So couldnt go to delta to watch A div games. So went straight to Seng Kang. Had a game against the Aussies. We really could have done so much better. They are huge and we are so small. But size should not matter. We can do it! Tmr another game. Lets show them what we can do!




* im stuck in between. Im confused.

I have been enjoying school for the past 3 days. Im happy that the earliest that school start is at 9 am.  I am very very very rusty with my maths. Simple basic algebra i take soo long to do. Need to brush up. :) Went to club crawl today. Decided not to join the canoe team. Their training schedule is too much. Dont think i can manage. Just concentrate on my hockey and school first.

Yesterday and today's training was a killer. Im really really super tired. My legs and stomach is aching so badly. Must be the running and crunches. its going to be okay i guess. Look on the bright side, i might be able to have abs, :) I want to have good arm muscles not fats on my arms. Today ate Mac for dinner at the new senglang pitch. We took our time to eat thinking that we could still catch the last bius home. Unfortunately, we missed it by a few seconds. If only i sprinted and stall the bus unlce we could have caught the bus. Sigh. Seng kang pitch was nice but its still too new. The shower sucks big time.

 

*I really do want to but im resisting myself not too because i know im wasting my time.

Holidays are going to be over soon. Time really pass by super fast. 6 months worth of holidays. what did i spent it on? School is starting this coming Monday. I feel excited but also sad. Excited because im meeting new friends, new people, new surrounding. Its going to be awesome. On the other hand, i got more things to jugle, more stress, more work. Anyway, i will be spending my last few days of holidays going to KL with the national women's team. Which i have been looking forward to.:) will be back by sunday and i am already going to go to school on monday!!!

Im FREE!! It just feel so so good!! Im so glad that i am out of that world of yours. I keep telling myself to grow up but am i the one who should be growing up? Oh wells, whats done is done. whats said is said. all i know i will never want to go back to that world of yours ever again. Tomorrow is going to be another day. :)